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by agirlandhermutt on May 12, 2015

Hey hey hey! I’m here to tell you good news. No, GREAT news!

Quick recap: I was a hospitalized at the beginning of February (for 6 days!) for an emergency surgery situation. I had a “retropharyngeal abscess” (a big ol’ nasty infection) that went from my lungs down into my chest. There is no real reason for this abscess/staph infection to form, but we do think I *might* have gotten a hole in my esophagus from choking on a bay leaf a month or so prior and the infection got through the hole.

Ugh.

Needless to say, I’ve undergone my fair share of CT scans, MRIs and x-rays. But on Monday I had my latest and FINAL CT scan. I met with my thoracic surgeon right after the scan and he told me that I looked “like a normal person”. WOOT! I was officially released from his care and told that I should put this chapter of my life behind me. He also said he was looking forward to never seeing me again.

Oh sir. You don’t have to tell me twice!

I’m officially 3 months post op and feeling really good. I have gotten back to eating right (for the most part) and working out. For the past 4 weeks I’ve been following the bikini series workouts and Weight Watchers and have lost 6.6 lbs. I like that .6 part. Weight watchers kills me with how accurate they are.

While those 6.6 lbs are great, I’ve been kind of at a standstill with my weight loss for about…a year and a half. I had plans to kick it into gear after the wedding and the start of the new year, but getting sick just kind of kicked that idea in the gut.

But I’m ready now. I feel like the things I am doing are fantastic and what I SHOULD be doing. I just need to do them with a little more effort, thought and skill.

I count my points. But I could work a little harder to maybe not have so many bits and nibbles. It is a nasty habit.

I drink my water. But I also have a serious love for soda. Specifically, coke in the can or Dr. Pepper with ice.

I workout. But I have been doing most of my workouts at home where I tend to not work nearly as hard.

I wear my FitBit every single day. But I’m struggling to make 6,000 steps outside of the gym. Seriously. The struggle is REAL.

At one point during my hospitalization a Dr came to visit me in the middle of the night to check on my IV. He was telling me that my illness was a “lottery disease”. You know, one in a million chance to get it. Yay?! But the part that stuck with me was what he said right after that. “If you had been older or not as fit, this would have killed you.” Uh. Thanks for calling me young! and I AM FIT.

No, I’m not the skinniest. I’m not at my goal weight. I’m not the fastest. I’m not the strongest. But I worked hard to get where I am! You just have to take a look back through my triathlon training recaps from last year or check out a few before & after photos to see my efforts.

And now I’m ready to push past this barrier and see what is on the other side.

I was in Soul Cycle on Sunday morning and had a moment. If you have ever been to a Soul Cycle class, you know that they are all about positive mantras. Depending on your mood that day, those mantras can be really annoying, or as it was on Sunday, really motivating.

Sal, the ever peppy instructor, had us close our eyes for the last ride of the class. It was dark and the music was perfect. And then he said,“You aren’t here to be perfect. You can’t be perfect. But you are here to make progress. So take that next step. Push a little harder. Work a little more. Just move forward. That is the best thing you can do. Let’s go.”

So simple, but so true.

I don’t have any grand sweeping plans to overhaul my life. I’m going to work at doing what I know I have to do and to getting back to a real life. A good life filled with positive people, delicious but healthy food, sweaty gym sessions and of course, a beer or two.

Ready?

Let’s go.

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March High-Low

by agirlandhermutt on March 31, 2015

March is over folks! Another month of unexpected joys and annoyances has come and gone. As part of my effort to be more positive this year, last month I started my High-Low series. It is a way for me to acknowledge the things that really SUUUUCKED and counter it with all the good that happens in my life. Thankfully the good outweigh the bad, but sometimes it is REALLY hard to remember that. Write it down and I will remember!

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March High-Low

Low- I felt like I had about a billion drs appointments throughout the month. Not only do the costs really add up, but the time it takes up is incredible. I had to miss several days of work and pay about a billion dollars for parking.

High-My CT scan came back totally clear! I was thrilled to pieces to hear that my recovery was right on track. The infection was gone, the fluid in my lungs was gone and my incision was coming along nicely. I have to go back in May for a few some blood work and then June for another scan. Hopefully that will be the end of this whole ordeal!

Low-The antibiotics I was on for almost 41 days really took a toll on me. Without getting graphic, my body was NOT a fan. Dry hair, bathroom issues and other body problems. It was like my body was on strike!

High-I finally was able to come off the meds! I was thrilled to give up my schedule of medication doses. I still have one lingering medication, but nothing serious. My hair was able to get back on track almost immediately too. I had a nice deep condition, color and cut. Much needed!

Low- Dumpy would be the exact word I would use to describe how I feel lately. I hate every single item of clothing I have and I hate how I look in them.

High-I’m back on Weight Watchers and back to a regular gym schedule. I was actually not feeling 100% even before my surgery so it was really almost 2.5 months off from working out. I’m back and slowly gaining my endurance and muscle back! Now if the weight would move a little quicker I would be a happy camper.

Low- Boston is still getting snow. STILL.

High- We had a few warm days so the snow finally melted in front of our house and I can walk down the sidewalk without almost falling and breaking my arm every day.

Low-Snow, cold temps and being sick=Feeling trapped. Everyone is going on vacation and I’m over here just hanging out at my house.

High- Just last week my parents and I planned for me to go visit them in April. It will be a much needed sun break. I also had some really fun activities this month including Bob’s Burgers Live!, volunteering at the Extreme Beer Fest, dinner with the girls, book club and an upcoming trip to NYC.

Low-Being inside so much has led me to feeling a bit overwhelmed by the house. I have A LOT of stuff. Clothing, kitchen gear, shoes, decorations. Everything. It just gets to be a bit too much for me sometimes.

High- I’ve started to purge and IT FEELS SO GOOD. A friend of mine also recommended the book The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up by Marie Kondo. Confession…I have not read the book yet, but I have found some great videos online of people who have! How sad is that?! ;) I secretly have aspirations of being a minimalist, but I’m no dummy. That isn’t going to happen.

I’m definitely planning on reading the book, but I felt like I needed to get an immediate control on my clothing. I watched a few videos and done. I purged a little! I expect to do more, but it makes me feel so much lighter! I might even talk about my whole experience with getting rid of my crap a bit more, if people are interested in that.

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I’m realizing more and more as the year progresses that just waking up and telling myself to have a good day and to stay positive is the key to me keeping my head up. Fake it till ya make it, right?! There are times when the Lows listed above start to do their number on my attitude. I do a quick check and realize how lucky I am compared to many others. A little shame in that department is a big motivator for me to just keep on trucking. I hope you all had a good March. Let’s have an even better April!

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Still getting back into it…

March 23, 2015

Hi folks! Just a quick drop-in to say hello! This is a nice little brain dump of what has been going on in my life. Last week was a little bit of a hot mess. I started off the week with my debit card number being stolen online and charges for Overstock.com that added up to […]

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